【ぺパドラ】A diary of person who has a driver's license but lacks confidence in driving because she rarely drives.

27/11/21

One of my goals of 2021 is to drive. This is because I am a person who has a driver's license but lacks confidence in driving. I don't like this situation, but I put up with having my husband drive me everywhere.

However, I don't like that I can't reach my own goals which is written in my pocket book, and I also don't like that I don't do my best for my own goals. So, I decided to drive again. As a side note, I have never driven for 2 years.

At 9:00. My husband and I went to our car. Why this time? Because I thought there weren't going to be a lot of people on the street. Our destination was Seven-Eleven which was 400m from our apartment and it takes only 3 minutes by bicycle.

I opened the door, rode in the car and adjusted the seat. I know where the button to start the engine is, but I don't know how to use the side brake pedal, brake pedal and accelerator pedal. At that time, I thought I must use my right foot for the accelerator pedal and left foot for side brake pedal, because the accelerator pedal is on the right and the side brake pedal is on the left. But I can't imagine which foot I have to use for the brake pedal in the middle. I started off using my left foot for the brake pedal, because I don't use this foot after releasing the side brake. Just in case, I asked my husband. "Do you use the left foot for the brake pedal?" He said that it is the right foot.

So, I checked of the position of my feet, while keeping the shift lever on parking. My right foot is not only the accelerator but also for the brake pedal. After checking it, I put the shift lever on drive and people passing in front of my car. I was so scared of driving my car. At that time, I drove it in and out of my parking lot. While I did that, my husband taught me and said again and again "I was so scared because you suddenly stepped on the brakes. " and "Don't step on the accelerator pedal."

I just got used to it, and I tried to drive on the road. I didn't use the accelerator pedal, because our car is an automatic car. I recognized that a car came in the opposite direction. But the driver suddenly understand that I was not good at driving. So, he passed by slowly. I can't thank him enough.

In the end, I came back after just driving 100m. Parking was so difficult for me that I've never remind of what I did and my husband said about parking.

I turned off the car engine and I got weak, but my husband said "You're done already?" No, you're not. Try a little more." I explained him how scared driving is, and I suggested "How about challenging again at 11:00pm today? It is because, at that time, there will be few people." He said "Now there are few people." He looked dissatisfied, but we went home.

Now, at 11:00pm, but I didn't drive. I decided to take a bath and go to bed.

29/11/21

I watched You Tube and I learned how to park in reverse. It is better than what my husband taught. I feel like I can do it.

Today as well, we went driving. When I parked in reverse like what You Tube says, I was surprisingly good. But my husband didn't like the way I parked, because it almost scratched the bumper.

He said "Let's switch driving." He took over the wheel. It seems like he wanted to teach the way he drives. He started the car engine and turned the steering wheel to the right.

"Scratch!"

We heard unpleasant sound. First of all, we didn't understand what happened. After a while we understood the situation. I appeared he scratched the car on a pole. We heard unpleasant sound again when he moved the car. However, there was no other way but to start it, so we heard this sound again and again.

It looked like this case was treated as a traffic accident. Immediately we called the police. At 10:30pm, we waited for the police to arrive in the winter cold.

The police arrived earlier than expected. My husband explained what happened. My husband said "I scratched the car when I taught my wife parking in reverse." The police asked him "Was it you who caused the accident?" My husband said "Yes I was." After that, the police performed on-site verification. After he finished all the things to do, the police man said my husband would receive a call from police.

After the series of events, we went back home. My husband worried about how much he had to pay about this accident, while I took a bath went to bed.

30/11/21

At 9:00pm. As usual, I wanted to practice to drive with my husband. But he didn't because of yesterday's accident. I had no choice bu to go alone.

If I was alone and I cause an accident, it wouldn't be recovered. So, I just moved the car back and forth. I repeated it ten times and I was satisfied with it, and I went back home. I took a bath and went to bed.

01/12/21

At 9:00pm. As usual, I went to the parking lot with my husband. I can't decide whether to drive until I go out, but once I go there, I always think it's good for me.

Today also, to start with moving the car back and forth, I thought it was easy to do that and I went on the road. I realized I'm getting used to it a little by little. I drove it 200m and parked. It took only 30 minutes but I was so exhausted. So, I decided to go back home, take a bath and go to bed.

02/12/21

Today I didn't drive.

03/12/21

Today I didn't drive.

最近の私

私自身、ノンネイティブで、

英語圏に住んだことはありません。

けれもども、英語を学習しているので、

英語の文章に挑戦です（笑）。

ミスも多そうですが、

英語の練習にたまにトライしてみます！

ぜひ、こちらもどうぞ！

マンガ描き始めました。

私のプロフィール

京都市の女性税理士です。

税理士になるまでの苦労が綴ってあります。

税理士試験はうまくいかないことばかりで、

何度も自暴自棄になっています。

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